house hunting

...is not fun at all

sure, looking into random people's overpriced houses are especially nice (ask my mother who used the bathroom in almost each one we saw today) when the house has potential, but at the end of the day, you have to make a decision, or at least narrow your choices down from 10 to about 2 or 3

and then of course, you can't buy all 3 houses, you have to pick one.

and not one house is perfect.

we saw one by my aunt's house, which is prime location, it's close to everything, and i hate to contradict myself, but it's perfect

except for the price tag.

:(

why can't i win the lottery already...

revelation

so there i was, explaining to bea and alex about how i was never going to get married, never going to have kids, never ever settling down.

and then alex decided to become a smartass and tell me that i haven't dated enough guys. he said that once you find that special someone, they will change your mind about marriage and kids.

and i kept pushing and pushing that it's not the other person, it's me. it's my own opinion. my own belief.

but of course, i couldn't tell them that i have found that person. i was too embarrassed to tell them that i see myself with rui, i see all my ID cards with the name edlene mogul-machado. i see little marcus. little adriana.

god, i'm so gay.

something, someone please intervene!

music post

so i just spent 5 hours or so under the rain, my feet permanently slodged in ankle deep mud, listening to incredible music

:)

couldn't think of a better way to spend a saturday night!

honestly, i was feeling quite skeptical on the way there, knowing that the weather is acting all bitchy, and this concert would be an outdoor event. but when i arrived at the park, there was so much energy, and emily haines just got on and i was actually really, really hyped about the concert. even though it was muddy, and my socks were sticking to my toes, i had a fantastic time. i scared nicole a bit because i dived right into the pit and she had a little panic attack when all these muddy shirtless guys started body slammin' us. fun fun fun! for her sake, we moved back a few steps. but by the time billy talent came on, everyone was tired so we moved up front and no one was being criminally mischievous.

i love my little adventures with rui. every time we go to a concert, something always happens. anyway, here are the bands we've seen together so far, in chronological order:

the cure
the cab
plain white t's
dashboard confessional
panic at the disco
parlovr
dog day
art of dying
skindred
ATR
disturbed
metric
alexisonfire
afi
billy talent

soon:
camera obscura
tori amos :)

i am so in love with music.

selfish and heartless

please let this not be a yearly thing
i still want to dance and to sing
please let this not be the end of it
i still want for us to make up and to meet

halfway
but
my way

several days ago

me and rui in his car, on the ramp exiting from the highway

just as he was about to turn left, someone rearends him

he swears

gets out of his audi to check the nonexistent damages and goes back in the car

with a frown :-(

r: some people just can't drive
me: aw...babe, you just got rearended. i was really hoping i'd be the first, but hey, that's okay. there'd be plenty of opportunities later, now that you're no longer a rookie...

he smiles and pinches my left cheek

and

rui is making me fall in love with him.

but

lorraine just made me smile.